Weds 7th Nov 2018

#weeklywednesdaysnapshot Since I last did a snapshot (I still need to upload a couple I actually managed to write as well) we’ve had 2 birthdays, 3 viruses, and a burnout relapse so rather than this quarter being a chance to recover and reset it’s become a bit of a survival period instead. There have been…

Sat 20th Oct 2018

Today has been Good. Work-wise I’ve harvested and cut back three of four pumpkin plants (the fourth, in the greenhouse frame, hasn’t started dying back at all yet and is clinging on to summer) and set the pumpkins out to cure in the porch, cut back some of the honeysuckle on the coldframe frame, cut…

Sun 10th June 2018

Feeling pretty lucky today. Steve could see I was struggling. It wasn’t hard to miss to be fair although I was trying my hardest to cope. Also it’s raining after a load of sunny days where I’ve been able to escape into the garden. We needed groceries and Sunday means buses every two hours so…

Mon 28th May 2018

Full of a cold, not sleeping well, woke early due to a combination of children not sleeping because they were poorly too. The early morning light is undeniably lovely though, even if I’d much rather have been in bed. And once Erika had had an extra snooze on me, while Ben had an extra snooze…

Sunday 27th May 2018

We’re all coming down with the cold that Steve’s been poorly with, so today has been a very very slow day. It’s been cooler and slightly overcast as well, but still just the right temperature to comfortably wear shorts and teeshirt outside! Eventually Steve and I got dressed (and so did Erika – I decided…

Sat 26th May 2018

So… half an hour to write up the day? Ok, so I finished off the rhubarb and ginger bread and bitter pudding for breakfast (how silly of me to think it would last three servings!) while the others had pancakes. Steve had already been out cutting the grass by the time I surfaced, and headed…

Different, Not Defective: Unravelling

Wow. This unravelling is more painful than I thought it would be. The euphoria of “oh my goodness I’m not just an awkward sod” wore off pretty quick and today I’ve been feeling more sad as a different set of memories have started to surface. Mainly, regarding choices. Where I was unable to see beyond…

Different, not defective

In light of the fact this it’s Mental Health Awareness week, I thought it kind of amusing that my brain has chosen this week to finally start seeing some kind of pattern emerging in the impossible jigsaw puzzle that is my brain. And I thought well, now’s as good a time as any to put…

Thurs 10th May 2018

“We don’t inherit the earth from our ancestors, we borrow it from our children.” – Native American proverb You know when all the feels hit you all at once? And they start leaking from your eyes…. Sitting on the patio with Steve, looking around, thinking “we live here”. Not just that but “we are living…

Sat 5th May 2018

Ah well. I’ve had an alright run of pre-menstrual weeks since moving here, the usual overwhelm hasn’t been as bad as expected, even through some challenging circumstances. This week has been a different story though and although at least the suicidal thoughts have been blessedly absent this time, today the overwhelm and inability to function…